2 Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.

3 For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.

4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight,
so that you are proved right when you speak
and justified when you judge.

5 Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.

6 Surely you desire truth in the inner parts;
you teach me wisdom in the inmost place.

7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.

8 Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.

9 Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.

10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.

12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
and sinners will turn back to you.

14 Save me from bloodguilt, O God,
the God who saves me,
and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.

15 O Lord, open my lips,
and my mouth will declare your praise.

16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.

17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise.

18 In your good pleasure make Zion prosper;
build up the walls of Jerusalem.

19 Then there will be righteous sacrifices,
whole burnt offerings to delight you;
then bulls will be offered on your altar.

All rite, I guess school is starting tomorrow. I will miss the holidays, its kinda back to real life now.. Tomorrow the campus will be noisy and the canteen will be flooded with students again. And thu will be a day we will all look forward to once again..

TADA.... My timetable.......



But sadly, fri i start at 8...... So thu after LM maybe cannot join for dinner :(
But I try to see how lor, see if I actually join for dinner how it will actually turn out.. Maybe I will need to force myself to bathe and QT and head straight to bed.

Will need to adjust also, I feel I got some changes I need to make also, some commitments I need to recommit. Lik spending time with God, my QT, how its going to be like.

After camp, I feel God is giving me the 'honeymoon' period for a little while, and I was reminded by my dear da jie that I should take it as a preparation for the next period of testing to come.

A few things I think I should learn to do,

1) Go offline after 12 midnight
2) Make it a habit to spend time with God before I turn on my com after I get home.
3) Make it a normal thing to spend time with God in the morning.
4) Revise my work (what was taught) at least once when I get home.

Yea, I still got DG, SMT, STM also besides LM.. So my mon, thu is more or less taken away already. So got to manage my time wisely too.
Suddenly came to my mind that the previous sem, was my most hectic, most stressful, most busiest, most desert-like sem ever..... Yet it was also the most rewarding sem. Somehow looking back, I see God's hand over the different matters..

Yea, was remined about a conversation I had with Michele just before the start of Term 2 of Sem 1:

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Dillon want me to mentor the E com

Michele - Abide says:
great, Great, GREAT!

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to be more intentional

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yes Yes YES

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but But BUT

Michele - Abide says:
i'm not trying to be funny, i really believe it and am passionate and excited for it

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kk

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i wondering about the time

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time Time TIME

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tick tick tick

Michele - Abide says:
do i have time?

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havent tot much about it

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yea

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i kno

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the issue lies wif me

Michele - Abide says:
dun put too much pressure on urself

Michele - Abide says:
heh, i wish i can spend so much more time with you too, so that can teach you so many things!

Michele - Abide says:
Seth! pray!

Michele - Abide says:
PRAY!

Michele - Abide says:
ask God for the fire in ur heart!

Michele - Abide says:
to help you start smal

Michele - Abide says:
ask for LOVE!

Michele - Abide says:
do you hear

Michele - Abide says:
it's like God is shouting at you through me now!

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sometimes i wonder if i putting too much pressure on myself

Michele - Abide says:
now, you can know about God in a crowd, but to hear his heart and voice, you have to go closer

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yet i feel lik i m not doing enuf

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lik not making an effort

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though it feels lik i m max already

Michele - Abide says:
why do you think this is happening?

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i dunno

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my parents wan my results to be 90 plus

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so i can secure an A

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u kno

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i kno e results of 3 modules le..

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only 1 90 plus

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yea

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if i told my mum she will confirm say y cannot get 90 plus

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but

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its not lik i didnt do wad i can and all

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dan thinking thinking

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it leads me to thinking about my commitment in crusade

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lik i m tempted to wan to cut down abit to study abit more

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but

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yet

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i kno where God calls me to be

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i also wonder

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m i really counting the cost before building the tower

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or is tis a result of not counting the cost

Michele - Abide says:
what is the difference btw us?

Michele - Abide says:
not to 'stress' you..

Michele - Abide says:
but now i'm really wondering..

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well

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u r a girl i m a guy?

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aha

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not sure also

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lik u r determined while i take things as it comes?

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jus randomly shooting

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lik u really can make the effort while i off after a while if i actually make the effort?

Michele - Abide says:
u noe what i think?

Michele - Abide says:
you are more through...

Michele - Abide says:
you have depth, and unrealised potential

Michele - Abide says:
what you see is just the tip of the iceberg...

Michele - Abide says:
and the beginning is always the hardest

Michele - Abide says:
you are doing little things.. and you are having good influences in ur life.. whether in church or crusade..

Michele - Abide says:
in church, u learn from good and bad experiences..

Michele - Abide says:
in crusade, you learn from good and bad examples..

Michele - Abide says:
there's so much you can learn about from the things that happen around you..

Yea. Just would like to share it with you all so you all can be encouraged. We all have hidden potentials, and its about finding it out through the things we do. And lets keep our eyes fix upoon Jesus yea, remember our destination, what a hope we have after all this things is over...

Havent been doing a great job in mentoring the E com so far, but I would try to do it I guess.....

What to say, Lord? It's
You who gave me life and I
Can't explain just how
Much You mean to me now
That You have saved me, Lord
I give all that I am to You
That everyday I could
Be a light that shines Your name

Everyday, Lord, I'll
Learn to stand upon Your word
And I pray that I
That I might come to know You more
That You would guide me in every single step I take, that
Everyday I can
Be Your light unto the world

Everyday, it's You I live for
Everyday, I'll follow after You
Everyday, I'll walk with You, my Lord

=)

ONWARD.. SEE U ALL 9AM AT SCHOOL TOMORROW.....

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Friday, October 10, 2008

(all of my days i will sing your praises)

Ok, time to blog for camp. Havent been blogging, pretty lazy and all cause of holi. Changes happened in the holi,

First, my bio clock went hay-wire.
Second, I began helping my dad until 3am in his work as a delivery man.
Third, well actually there is no third.

And I realised I havent blog bout poly summit or breakthrough =x

Anyway camp was great, enjoyed alot, especially the games =D. Its a time where everyone can go super wild. All the water bomb and dunking and throwing of pails of water.

I went to school with my dad on the first of camp cause he helping transport the logistics to the chalet. Then went go until there, I ended up waiting for ppl to come -.-|| Cause no one was there yet. Soon come along Wendy and Melodie and then the camp com. And we began prayer walking around chalet 6. And some of us felt some uneasiness bout the chalet, cause the feeling was like very creepy suddenly, like no peace that kind. After prayer walking we still felt some uneasiness in some places but decided to leave everything to God.

Then everything started unpacking and the campers start coming. The camp started off with an opening by the camp commandant and then worship. I was lik whoa, so fast worship start. I thought Jun Ming they all will say more things.

The Restored discussion was great. We shared deeply (as much as possible) and we all benefited from each other's sharing. Was an encouragement also, to know that people around us are actually going through the same things, did the same 'bad' things and in need of the same Jesus for restoration.

Games was wild, was game master for the fist day and Gabriel was my partner in crime for that station, it was fun wetting everyone. Haha. We even dunked Luke Lim, Lester and Caleb in the sea. Lol. So fun, but sadly luke and lester got injuries casue they never wear shirt and fell in the wrong way. Lol. Hope it heals soon yea. Then the last team came to play after everything and we started spraying with 3 water guns, running around the beach. Aha. Like kids.

Second day the games was even wilder. Our first station was already crazy. I manage to convice my team, dont care if win or not, just have fun can le, wet all the game master. First thing after we completed the fill up the water bottle with our mouth that game, Josisah ask us fill up the pail for the next team and we use the water to pour it on him from the head. Lol. And he was lik drench. Wahaha. Then the next station go there straight away see Wendy and Justin (GM of the station) splashin water with cups at each other and I jus took the pail staight away and TADA there goes the "Not-So-Drenched" Wendy. Lol..

At our last station, which was back at Justin and Wendy station, they suddenly disappeared leh, we wait until so long, but we recovered plastic bags there in bundles and we and another team started making ammo for our battle with the other teams. And went its all done, a massive water fight started which drench almost everyone. When the pastic bags were used up, we used hoses and pails. And it was so crazy. Lol. Those who were there of course enjoyed it, see, being a child is so fun. Lol..... Who cares if we are 18 or something =p

The sermon was good I guess, but guess what God wanted me to hear was at the last nite, about surrendering, he even prepared me for it, by getting me to play for drums on the final nite of service. Really kno, its really surrendering ourselves. Our pride, our self centeredness, etc etc...
I was touched by God even when I was drumming, though I feel it wasnt good, but God was really pleased and I could really feel it, and I just immediately broke down after worship in the toilet.

Impacted alot of ppl during Ministry time. Being an ST and ministering to others, I myself was ministered too as I learnt the different things my friends are facing, their fears, their struggles, their not-so good things hapening in their lives. Knowing that God sees each and everyone of them as precious. Its really something not to forget.

Vision Night the skit was super funny. Haha.. Everything was just impromptu. The script (only overview of what will be happening) only came out on the second night, and on the third afternoon, it was the rough run through and the third night, we just whack it le, turns out to be super hilarious. Everything so funny. Yong Liang so goofy, Van swtiching voices, Daniel and Joel "ridiculous" jokes, Jeanette and Caleb "drama action", My "Ah Beng-ness" etc etc...............
Actually wasnt really paying attention when yongliang was talking... shhhhh..... heh, was at e back discussing about extended worship and then resting........ LOL....

Extended worship was great also, its as always, one of the main highlights of camp. A MUST-HAVE in camps, wonder if other sch crusade got such things not. It came as a surprise to me, cause it turned out that onli me and Benjamin is leading it, cause the mixer spoil so onli can set up one mic. But thank God it turned out fine.

Really, saw God made miracles happen in school. Simply amazing, from worship, to the restored session. And how things were happening and how it turned out. Like vision night. Wow. Thank God for everything which took place.

Yup, I guess thats about camp, o ya.. The food was great. (Except for the rubber fish. Lol.....) Anyway, knew alot new ppl, ppl whom didnt get chance to talk to in LM, and new faces who never came for LM. Also better know other ppl whom seldom talk during LM. Great to know you all guys. Aha.

Guess a take-home for me is really that I am already Justified by faith =D

And therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a

new New NEw NEW NEW NEW nEW neW new CREATION!!!
new New NEw NEW NEW NEW nEW neW new CREATION!!!

Whoo.....Weeeee.....Ahhhhhhh.....





PS. If you all enjoyed the camp and want to say something, you all can go to
crusade blog shout your joy =)

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