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Isaiah 43:10 "You are my witnesses," declares the LORD, "and my servant whom I have chosen, so that you may know and believe me and understand that I am he. Before me no god was formed, nor will there be one after me. worship is a choice All of my life, In every season You are still God I have a reason to sing I have a reason to worship And this is what its all about the kid Name: Seth B'day: 13th Apr '90 School: Ngee Ann Poly Course: Aerospace Electronics Church: Providence Presbyterian Church Shouts life touched ariana benjamin carissa caryl cheryl chia chee hwee christie cindy dawn dawn's blogshop deborah elrah en qi fred hwee fang hwee qi jacqq jeremiah chong jimmy 哥 joshua simon jun ming kelvin fze marcus loke michele nelson richard boon boon sinyi shi peng titus chee vanessa wendy oan willis winnie wisdom yu qing yang jun 丁丁姐
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Monday, January 10, 2011 (all of my days i will sing your praises) When I enlisted, I appeared brave n ready to face what is to come. However deep inside, I was a scared young boy. Afraid of what is to come and stuff. I heard stories of what goes on inside from others, every Singaporean son as well as army daze. God also reassured me a lot regarding army. But nothin prepared me for the v first water parade we had. Not to mention the crazy fire drills which took place. I remember how I cried to God at nite when in bed. How will I get by these 4 mths if I m finding it so hard to get thru jus day 1 in bmt. It was a 'welcome ceremony to raven coy'. I also rmb the crazy CPTs and 5BXs which we had to do. Holding those positions for almost forever. And of course the insane amount of shouting we had to go through. I will always end up spending the time of running n training mediating on Gods glory, word as well as creation. If he is so big n we r so small, what is our problems to him? Looking towards the heavens and the stars, it washes up a sense of peace and tranquility over me as I jus ponder on how this great God who created the earth is watching over me. How I kno my future rest well in him. With this, time passes fairly quickly week after week until e dreaded field camp week. I was feeling v unsettled n afraid because of what is going to happen. I decided to go to yvonne's church e day before field camp week so as to receive e spiritual support I need for the following week. Somehow I realised this was sth I can't really find in my church. The whole thing turned out well as I fellowshiped wif frenes I haven't met in awhile n some new frenes. Yvonne's encouragement helped alot n I found myself feeling ready for tmr. It may sux to go thru it but at e end of it, I will b glad I went thru it as it was a good training. Field camp day. We did our 8km road march all e way to our field camp site. I was having a heart of expectancy as we start our march knowing tat it will b one heck of an experience. When we reached e field camp site however, all my perspectives and 'good feelings' changed totally. Climbing up the hill was tougher than we expected and all of us were tired TTM when we reached the site. Hence there was slow movement when we were asked to form up. Lots of tekaning which resulted in me wonder how on earth am I going to get through the other 4 days if the first day is already like this…. Tekaning was practically free during field camp. Never had I been placed in a crazy situation where we had to high kneel every moment, tacticalise our movements which resulted in discomfort and sleep with my buddy which at times proved to be a challenge. It rained almost everyday and that worsen our morals and situation. I was super carnal during that period. I cursed and sweared everyday. And prayers became super self centered as well. I did not want to bother or care bout other things. All I know is to get my own things done and hope for the last day to quickly come. I realized how selfish I can be during that period. All my ugly side just came out at that point. After field camp, I realized that my spiritual life got affected quite badly. I got so used to not reading the bible and mediating on God’s word that it continued on when I returned to coy-line. It took me a while for my condition to improve a little only. Then I had to go for SIT Test. Sit Test was no better. I was still pretty carnal. Though it was not as bad as field camp, it was still carnal – no excuse. Was pretty tired during the first day because of the weather – didn’t really participate much. Second day was better though. The 12km road march there was quite tiring as well. Really wanted to fall out at the first 4km because of the heat. Everyone was beat totally. Thank God for the commanders. We had a long rest after the nxt 4km when we returned to coy-line. That helped us to regain our strength to carry on the march. Didn’t manage to do a lot of witnessing. Only one proper one with one of my bunk mates when he asked questions during confinement week. Also talked abit bout relationship with God with my frene who is a Christian in my bunk as well. The rest was probably on and off convo only. Coming back to SIT test, had a spiritual crisis. Because my spiritual life only improved a little after field camp and after SIT test, it dropped even lower. I dropped much more than I improved. Because of this, I seldom prayed or read the bible in a way which I should have done. Divine appointments were missed one after another. And the scary thing was that I was fine with it. I was so accustomed to it that change was so hard. Had to talk to Yvonne and Eliza about it before I could turn myself around. Yvonne told me that it is about the choices I make. We all have a choice. And we need to put in the effort if we want to turn ourselves around. POP. Finally it is our 24km road march. It was a big jump from our 16km road march. I was struggling and psycho-ing myself mentally to keep walking no matter what (my feet was hurting like crazy). Had only abt 1 hr of rest and then parade. Am just glad its over. 0 comments (all of my days i will sing your praises) What happened in 2010: 1) ae project - B+ 2) final exams & graduation - passed with acceptable results (3.46) 3) Crusade - ST - admin & d com + lessons learnt - DG 4) Thailand gen12 - spiritual encounters 5) volunteer in crusade - learnt what it means to serve n invest in lives - God provided e money 6) struggles in purity - still learning to overcome it with God’s grace 7) ignite conference - ignited the passion for the lost to return to Christ 8) ns - BMT 9) spiritual crisis - struggles which can only lead me closer to God at the end of it 2011 Resolutions 1) Get even closer to God 2) Better uitilise my time for him 3) Able to know and find out where does God want me to be after NS. Most importantly, is psychology really what he wants me to do? 0 comments |